22 JULY 2007 1734 HRS

These days, my relationship with my hubby aren't filled with kisses & smooches any more.
He is so busy with this current project that he have to work everyday like 12 hours. & his temper is so short that he'd blew a fuse anytime I step on his toes. So much so that I always imagine life without him. Divorce?
How should I lead my life sinlge & alone again. Today, I start to imagine again. But like the weather today, it's rather gloomy. I practically didn't even open my mouth to speak since I last spoke to my husband about 10 hours ago. I look out of the window, & sees only cars & families. I surf the net without any objectives. I smoked while I surf. Ate cakes while I surf. Slept on the couch & my bedroom. Still not knowing what to do.
Is this what it's going to be should I be alone again? With no one to talk to. No friends to go out with? It's a dreadful feeling.
I should learn to be more accomodating towards my husband, who is working his ass off. Yet I loathe the fact each time we talk, he would only talk about making more money other than working for our employers.
I hate this subject. It would invariably lead him reprimanding me not taking serious interest in making our money work for us.

It's such a sad day. Even before I start my day, had a tiff with hubby.
All about me not taking interest in our monies. About me not taking keen interest in learning new things living life the cushy way. later came the day when my manager put the responsibilites on me squarely settling customer's instruments problem.